Sometimes I hate being black?

Question

Now don't get me wrong I really do love being in the skin I'm in. What makes it difficult is dealing with not only racism online but racism in person too. I normally have a thick skin and try to brush it off but today it just really got to me.

For example when I got accepted into a really good university in my state, my peers said it was the fact that I'm african american and that its easier for us to get into a top university for the simple fact that they want diversity. So they discredited my hard work in getting accepted on the simple fact that I'm black which bothered me. My peers were also complaining that there's a lot of scholarships geared towards African Americans and they feel as though its unfair. When I was little I remember I accidentally bumped into this guy at the grocery store and he called me the N word. It traumatized me so much that from 3rd to 10th grade I had really bad social anxiety and had to take Prozac for it.
I know I'm just rambling but I'm really upset. I downloaded Kik for the first time last week and at first it was fun. I was meeting new people and making online friends. Then little by little I'd get attacked by racist trolls calling me all types of names and saying I should pick cotton and what not. I'm just tired of it. I want people to see me for me and not what I look like on the outside. I'm tired of it. I'm human just like everyone else

Answer 1

Sorry about all that.. I get what you are saying and I agree you got a raw deal. I had a similar experience.

There was a time i wished i was not white too.



but dont hate being black .. because it doesn't matter what color you are you are. All races experience racism to some level or another. (some worse than others of course) But the grass is not always greener on the other side.



For example : I'm a white guy. In the 1990's I decided to persue my dream and spent 4 years and nearly a 200 thousand dollars.in school loans going to a prestigious Flight school to become a commercial pilot. At that time about 90% of all pilots were white males. So most airlines instituted a affirmitive action plan where all minorities and women would be hired first. so as a white male i was last on the list.



Now i dont mind being passed over if the other person is more qualified than i am



but to be passed up by people who didn't have even half of my training just because of their gender or race sure made me mad.

Wouldn't you simply want the best pilot possible flying your plane? I know i would!



I had to find a way to put food on the table so I financially had to give up my live dream of flying for the big airlines



so dont be mad at your race nor any other race...



instead be mad a racist individuals that cause the problems. because it affects us all.

Answer 2

I am half black. I feel like the fact that you live in America has something to do with it. I can't imagine how it must feel watching the news and knowing that skmeone just like you was shot for no reason by people who are meant to protect you. But you can not allow other people's hatred to make you hate yourself. Racists are insecure and generally unsuccessful people who generally tend to hate themselves and hate others to distract themselves from their own inadequacy. Personally I am so proud of my race. Black people have so much to be proud of and so do you. Who cares if some insensitive little prick thinks you only got into uni because of being black? You'll both leave with the same degree, won't you? Ever considered why people hate on us so much? Black people are beautiful, strong and will one day rule the world. We have survived so much. And we have the strongest genes. And I understand why you feel how you do.

Answer 3

Not all humans are equal. It's sad but true. If the color of the skin and facial features of everyone in Africa made them indistinguishable from white European Americans they would still live in mud huts, burn tires full of gasoline around each other necks and be dirt poor. It is what's inside that counts but being able to recognize what is inside people by how they look outside is actually helpful in making smart safe decisions about people. I don't hate people for their skin color, it's what's inside that matters. I give everyone the benefit of doubt until the first sign of a dangerous inner trait. This has allowed me to have friends From all races. Every race has some good people in it.

Answer 4

I am not discrediting your hard work and it is awesome that you got into a good college. However many times if a profile of a black person and a profile of a white person is compared by a university, and they both have high GPA's and did good on the sat and/or act, the university is going to pick the person who is black.That is be said they want diversity, due to Affirmative action. Also why do you think that schools ask for your race and/or ethicity

Answer 5

Sorry to hear this. Please dont feel bad when people try to discredit you by saying you have it easier because youre black.



The fact is you dont have it easier. Just because a few universities decided to finally accept more black students , that doesnt mean there are more opprtunities for blacks than whites. just because the number of black students who qualify for places went from 1% to 5% that doesnt mean they have an unfair advantage! When 95% of places go to whites. so there is still much more to be done and your white froends should grow up and support change. Because they should be competing with students of all races for places at uni, not just with white students. They are dumb to think that equality is an unfair advantage.



Be bigger and better than them. That's how you grow, thats how you get successful and dont let anyone else discredit you , Brcause of their own insecurities.



Watch michelle obamas speech on you tube, its inspiring for black women. Keep your chin up...x

Answer 6

That's very weak of you to let another race make you feel insecure about yourself. I'm African American and I am very proud to be. I've accomplished so much in my life and there's not a single soul that can put me down. thats how you should feel as well.



i know many other races that are insecure too, my neighbors are white but they use "spray tan" everyday, and there are tons of white people that sun bathe because their not happy with being pale.



Everyone has something they're insecure about,

no need to be depressed (feel bad) about it. That's the way you were born. Build your confidence, be happy! 🤗

Answer 7

You're facing discrimination that no white person will understand from experience, but from description only.

It's all wrong...don't let them wear you down.

Please never feel shame from these people that can't accept that you have risen above them. Try to shrug off the name calling and bullying, these are the comments of bigots. They don't know what being a human being is.

Above all, keep trying to rise above that trash and remember that the people that cannot accept you only because you're black are really just the trash of society that you don't ever want in your life anyway.



Stick hard to school. You don't have anything to prove. You belong there as much as anyone else and if you feel inclined, recycle that negative energy to fuel your fire to succeed.



Hang in there. I am sorry to hear you have been through this.

Answer 8

There are always going to be racist people in the world, some more vocal than others. They can try to make you feel inferior but they can't unless you let them. Everyday you wake up is going to be a struggle, but just remember that it's a blessing too. Haters are always going to be there waiting and watching just to tear you down, but they can't unless you let them. Hold your head up high and shine because you are beautiful, smart, talented, and worth it. Everybody has their stuggle and bad days too. It's the will to keep moving that makes you a warrior... So keep moving and prove your haters wrong. You got this!! :)

Answer 9

Don't worry about what people say online. They're just obnoxious low life trolls with an obvious mental issue, that's not your fault. Same goes for people in real life, if someone has audacity to criticize you over your race, they're making themselves look stupid and they'll suffer consequences for it eventually. don't give these people attention because all they want is to get a rise out of you and you shouldn't let them do that.

Answer 10

Me too always being looked at as a criminal by store owners always being looked at as a thug for walking around at night i cant think of very many positive stereotypes associated with being black

Answer 11

What the ppl in the university saying is true if they didn't ppl would say they are racist even if they aren't But I Think U Made It In There Through The Hard Work

Answer 12

Pl. try to understand the prevail compelling situation and try to adjust. The need of the hour is cooperation with everyone.



We cannot do any wonders here with a sentence. Hence you have to plan to raise a solid question here.

Answer 13

Well you know, in the instances you cite, you did nothing to bring on these bad behaviors. That means they are not personal.

I know it is annoying, but ignore it as best you can.

You know perfectly well that your Blackness is not a problem. The problem is that some people are rude and mean. Now, if a mean person is mean to you, what do you expect? That's what they do.

Answer 14

Richard Pryor said, "It’s hard enough being a human being. It’s really f*ckin’ hard enough just to be that. Right? Just to go through every-day life without murdering a motherf*cker. It’s hard enough just to walk through life decent as a person."

Answer 15

Being black ain't wrong be proud

Answer 16

Have you ever read,"The Three Musketeers"? Did you know that the author, Alexandre Dumas, was a black Frenchman?

He, too, suffered from racism. To one man who insulted him, Dumas retorted, "My father was a mulatto, my grandfather was a ***** and my great grandfather was a monkey. You see, Sir, my family starts where yours ends."

I am certain that he would not object to your quoting him.

Answer 17

If it's any consolation I'm white and I didn't get into university so you're doing better than me :D

Answer 18

Black people are so cool. I have always wanted a black friend. They are very brotherly and awesome people.

Answer 19

You should really ask your peers why they feel more entitled and deserving to a scholarship or getting into a college just because they're white (I'm assuming). That's white privilege at its finest if you think about it.

Answer 20

Sorry to hear that, Now white and black are equal.

Answer 21

Put your big boy pants on. It is definitely inconvenient at times but you can't let that set you back.

Answer 22

Here is wisdom: "Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.

Behold, all they that were incensed against thee shall be ashamed and confounded: they shall be as nothing; and they that strive with thee shall perish.

Thou shalt seek them, and shalt not find them, even them that contended with thee: they that war against thee shall be as nothing, and as a thing of nought.

For I the LORD thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee."- the Word of God.

Jesus Christ is the truth, the way, and the life! Jesus loves you. Get a king james bible and believe. Read John chapter 1 and 3. Read Romans chapter 5,8,10,12. Read 1 John chapter 4. Read Matthew. Read Ephesians chapter 2. Read Acts chapter 4. Read 1 Corinthians chapter 1 and 15. Believe in Jesus Christ and you shall have everlasting life! Jesus loves you.

Answer 23

being black means you have to be strong. especially when youre smart. of course it seems like it would be easier to be another race but having been black all my life i love it. you sound like a smart guy. youve gotten into college. as you continue on in life youll meet other black people who are also hard working and intelligent and know exactly what its like to endure life in america. so dont get down on yourself cuz youre not alone.

Answer 24

I smell a pink boy in disguise trolling as a brother..pink boy give it up

Answer 25

Shouldn't hate who you are because of idiots. Your letting the idiots win. Your human like everyone else. Once you realize they are dumb simple minded pricks you will hold your head up higher

Answer 26

Don't believe all that you read above. Believe it or not, whites go through exactly the same thing. I live in New Orleans, and have Supervised and worked with many blacks in my time. Racism is not limited and owned only by blacks. Look up the term ; you'll be amazed. I do thank you for your candor and have heard this many times over by friends of the black community but whites experience the same thing.

Always base your lies on facts and you'll never go wrong. Fact: you had remarkable grades and THAT'S what allowed you to attend schools and get scholarships Fact: My Daughter had excellent grades and she received no scholarships but she pursued a Pharmaceutical Degree and accomplished it. Of course, she has over $200.000.00 of debt now....do you? That's great in any case. And yes, she has Personality Disorders because we live in a well established above middle class neighborhood....around lower class drug addicted and infested neighborhoods.

We can sit back and blame for our shortcomings until the cows come home but what will that solve. Pick a direction that you feel strongly about in your life. If you suffered at the hands of living in a racially bound world than YOU are the only one who can affect that change.

Fact: I was in the Military for over 20 years. I Supervised a local Vehicle Operations Dept. on an Air Force Base. and while I supervised 19 blacks and only 5 whites, the only way I could get any participation out of much of the black workforce was to "befriend" my Co-Supervisor, who really disliked me because I always strive to be a true Christian and he and I would argue that it was o.k. for him to be a Christian and be a womanizer and dog for women at the same time because SIN was o.k. as long as you were sorry for it...He has passed on now from throat cancer and his legacy lies in all the children he had for various other women. I do not live by nor do I approve of that code of ethics and he knew that as well , among many other vile ways he lived. But he could get "HIS associates" to do whatever he willed and that was my bottom line. Until, one day he determined he had enough of me and filed on me and had me ousted out of the Supervisory position. But not until I retired and was gone. Two years later , they shut down the entire base and and all these people lost jobs, Military time, and some lost lives. I'm not saying this was the fault of being black and white but I have seen and been subjected to far too many instances in life where it was not because one excelled in academic achievements over racial preference. I believe it is an equal blend of both or either.

In any case, I love all mankind and I love you for being what and who you are and the fact that this kind of open dialogue is the ONLY thing that will bring people together.

People have to wake up , go to work, work together for the betterment of our country and our people...We ARE ONE !. When we fight in war you get to see the oneness of people . You are put in positions where you have to have each other's back and unfortunately THAT is the only thing that this country needs to happen to bring our peoples together. It sounds ludicrous I know but nothing else has ever worked to date like war...Self preservation takes a multitude of people. . .

Answer 27

Just be happy to be alive and in a country where you have human rights.

Answer 28

i w0uld hate it t00. id be igly and stupid and lazy. pr0bably g0 t0 jail f0r c0mmitting petty crime and id be filled with anger and hate twards my betters c0nstantly.

Answer 29

No matter what color you are people base what you are by their opinion.



At least when you sneak up on someone in darkness you won't be seen.

Answer 30

First of all, you are stuck with this race, you cannot change it. I think that you will have to just deal with it. And, those peers of yours have no place to talk that way to you. The reason why universities have to have diversity, the reason why you being accepted would be considered diversity, is because white people are the majority. White people have privilege. And, no matter what they say most of the people at the school are going to be white. It doesn't make you any lesser. And, if they think that you getting in is simply because you are black. That means that they are racist and don't believe that you are capable of getting in.

Answer 31

Coincidentally or ironically that's what n/ggers that piss me off feel too!!!

Answer 32

Poor niga.

Answer 33

Be strong. Surround yourself with family and friends who love you and will protect you. God bless you.

Answer 34

that's normal... i often hate being female... we often wish we were something else but " the grass is always greener"... love yourself and be the proper you can...

Answer 35

I hate the ghetto black.

Answer 36

At least you are being honest with it

Answer 37

you can go back to Africa.

Most of them are blacks.

Answer 38

Lol

Answer 39

I have the same feeling. Bullies mistake me for a terrorist :(

Answer 40

It doesn't sound as if social media suits your temperament.

Answer 41

It's better than being a pale, nerdy white honky....

Answer 42

Okay. What's the question.

Answer 43

ok

Answer 44

If I was Black, I would hate myself too. Nobody wants to look like a monkey & be cultureless. Blame your black parents for having sex and producing you.

Answer 45

You suck, self-hater.

Answer 46

Blame it on the effects of affirmative action.

Answer 47

i would too.

Answer 48

I'd hate myself too if I was inferior. Thankfully I'm Asian and not black. lol

Answer 49

All mankind is from Adam and Eve, an Arab has no superiority over a non-Arab nor a non-Arab has any superiority over an Arab; also a white has no superiority over a black nor a black has any superiority over white except by piety and good action. Learn that every Muslim is a brother to every Muslim and that the Muslims constitute one brotherhood. Nothing shall be legitimate to a Muslim which belongs to a fellow Muslim unless it was given freely and willingly. Do not, therefore, do injustice to yourselves.



all of Allah’s creation is good, but Allah may test a slave with sickness or a defect or ugliness and the like due to a wisdom He is aware of, and a benefit He wished for you to attain.



Beauty and ugliness are like sickness and health, wealth and poverty, and success and failure; Allah has distributed all provisions between His slaves through His vast wisdom, perfect mercy and abundant favour upon His slaves. Granting of any of those things or others is not an indication of Allah’s love for the one to whom He granted or provided those things. Nor is withholding any of them a sign of His displeasure towards the one being deprived. Allah says (what means):



“15. And as for man, when his Lord tries him and [thus] is generous to him and favors him, he says, "My Lord has honored me."



16. But when He tries him and restricts his provision, he says, "My Lord has humiliated me."



17. No! But you do not honor the orphan



18. And you do not encourage one another to feed the poor.



19. And you consume inheritance, devouring [it] altogether,



20. And you love wealth with immense love.” (al-Fajr 15-20)







Sh. As-S’adi (may Allah have mercy on him) said:



“Allah the Exalted informs of the nature of man as he is, that he is ignorant and unjust, and does not know the outcomes of things. He thinks that whatever condition he is in will continue and never cease and he thinks that Allah’s honouring him and favouring him in this world is an indication of his honour and and closeness to Him. And when “He tries him and restricts his provision” such that he has only his needs with nothing extra, then this is an insult from Allah. So Allah responds to him his estimation by saying (what means) “No!” i.e. Not everyone I have bestowed favours upon in the world is honoured by Me, and not everyone whom I have restricted provisions for is lowly before Me. Rather, wealth and poverty and abundance and restrictedness are tests from Allah and trials which He puts His slaves through, to see who is grateful to him and who is patient so that He may reward them a great reward for it as compared to those who do not, so they are given a painful punishment. As well: A slaves aspirations may not go beyond himself, due to weakness in zeal, so Allah rebukes them for not being concerned about the affairs of the needy creation…” End quote from Tafsir as-S’adi (924)



If people were to follow your example in your speech, thought and displeasure over the will of your Lord and His destiny for you –may Allah forgive you- there would only be complainers and disgruntled people on earth.



The ill would say: why have You made me ill and saved the people? The poor would say: Why have you made me poor and made others wealthy? Those being tried would say: Why are you trying me and left others in a good state?



The believer is to be pleased, observe patience and anticipate reward while others become annoyed with and complain about their Lord.



Do you not realize that you have two eyes with which you can see while millions cannot even see?!



Do you not see that you are able to walk on your own two feet, you go and come wherever you wish while an infinite number of people are paralyzed and disabled?!



Let’s say you lost all that; do you not realize Allah’s favour of Islam upon you, and that He chose you for this great favour (which all the pleasures of the earth cannot equal) over most of the creation who do not believe in Allah. On the Day of Resurrection, Allah the Exalted will say (what means): “Oh Adam! And he will respond, Here I am and blessed by You, and all good is in Your hands. Then He will say: Remove the delegation of the fire! He will say: And what is the delegation of the fire? He will say: From every thousand, nine hundred and ninety nine. Al-Bujari (3099) and Muslim (327)



Ponder over this story, O maidservant of Allah:



Al-Awza’i narrates from ‘Abdullah ibn Muhammad that he said:



I went out to the shore as a patrolman and our patrol at the time was in ‘Areesh Misr. When I arrived at the shore, I came upon an open area and there was tent on it. In the tent was a man who had no hands and legs and he was hard of hearing and sight. None of his limbs were of benefit to him but his tongue, and was saying: O Allah, grant me (the ability) to praise you a praise through which I can sufficiently thank You for the favours You have bestowed upon me and by which You have preferred me over many whom You have created a great preference.



Al-Awza’I said: ‘Abdulla said: By Allah, I will certainly go to this man and I shall certainly ask him about this speech. An understanding, or knowledge or inspiration which was inspired to him?



So I approached the man and greeted him and said to him: I heard you and you were saying: O Allah, grant me (the ability) to praise you a praise through which I can sufficiently thank You for the favours You have bestowed upon me and by which You have preferred me over many whom You have created a great preference.; so what favour from the favours of Allah upon you are you praising Him for? And in what way did He prefer you over others a great preference that you need to thank Him for it? He said: Don’t you see what my Lord has done? By Allah, if He sent the sky to me as a fire which burned me, or ordered the mountains to crush me, or the oceans to drown me, or the earth to swallow me up; it would only cause me to be more grateful to my Lord for the favour of this tongue He bestowed upon me.



However, O slave of Allah: As long as you have come to me, I have a need of you! Perhaps you see me and the state I am in, I cannot harm nor benefit myself. I had a young son who used to come to me at the time of prayer and help me do my ablution, and when I became hungry he’d feed me, and I became thirsty he’d provide me with a drink but I have missed him for the last three days, so please look for him on my behalf may Allah have mercy on you.



I said: By Allah, no creature could fulfill the need of another which is greater in reward with Allah than a need similar to yours. So I set out looking for the young boy, and I hadn’t gone far before I came by a sand hill, and behold I found the boy who had been preyed upon by a beast which ate his flesh! I did istirjaa’ (saying Indeed we belong to Allah and to Him is our return) and said: How am I going to be able to face this man with a gentle face?!



As I was heading towards him, the thikr (words of remembrance) of Ayyub the Prophet (may Allah’s peace and blessings be upon him) came to my heart. So when I reached him I greeted him and he responded and said: Are you not my companion? I said yes! He said: What did you do about my need? I said: Are you more honourable in the site of Allah or was Ayyub the Prophet? He said, of course Ayyub the Prophet. I said: Do you know what His Lord did with him? Did He not test him in his wealth, family and children? He said, yes. I said: How did He find him? He said: He found him patient, grateful and praising. I said: He was not pleased with that for him until his relatives and loved ones deserted him? He said, yes. I said: How did His Lord find him? He said: He found him patient, grateful and praising; make it short may Allah have mercy on you. I said to him: The young boy you sent me in search of, I found him in a sand hill having been preyed upon by a beast which had eaten his flesh. May Allah increase for you tour reward and may He inspire you with patience.“Purify your intentions, your inner being, your heart and be sincere in your actions,’ he wrote. ‘God looks into your heart, not at your outer form. He looks at what lies behind the clothes … He looks into your private sphere, not at your public show.”

― Kristiane Backer, From MTV to Mecca: How Islam Inspired My Life

Answer 50

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Answer 51

**** you nìgger.